Hi there ! I think I'm superfluous.
In your home i think i'm the unwanted person and i'm the invisible one sometimes.
The way we talks to each other always end up with arguing. The way we talk always dislikes by each other no matter what. Sometimes i sees that you and your family could being so happy without me and baby. So that i think i'm the superfluous person in your home. Just like the car , without me you can sit nicely with your family without squeezing the sits for me and baby. There's no need a money to used for me and baby if we didn't exist. The diaper , milk powder , medical fees , foods all of the money we use . if we aren't in a part of your life you might be enjoy your happy life with your family and friends without frustrating and thinks of the problems that you need to think now.
The way we are argue make me thinks that we won't last . Maybe few years later one of us stand any of us . Neither one of us will say breakups. If that really happens i don't mind and I understand. Give me sometime , just 3 years time if we end up in this way . I'll take baby with me and you can have your life without arguing ,complaining and frustrating. I'll raise her by myself in my ways.
In my home sometimes i think i'm the unwanted person too but there's the only place that i can really feel a little comfortable a place which still have a little space for me. Afer married, no matter what happens in my house i have no right to talk or give any comments. No matter where a woman goes, she has no places and no right to speak up. The way you guys laugh and smile , wasn't include me and baby. You guys can smile and laugh even though we aren't there. I apologize that sometimes i dislike about your mom. I dunno why. Either just that she makes me feel uncomfortable and make me feel im the superfluous one. Bout your sis, i not dislike her, just that the way she treats mei mei sometimes i really dislike about it. I know that she's still a small kid. I didn't blame her. Her toys , ya its her . She don't wanna share nevermind. I know why she does that, that's why i won't let mei mei reach out of her toys and if mei mei like those i'll buy for mei mei and not touch any of hers.
I know you dislike of my family too. I understand how u feel and I know why .
LL and VL is really had no manners i know, I live there with them I know their pattern and attitude.
Sometimes i hate them so much too but what can i do i can't speak up now. I'm the outsiders now.
No matter what happens i can't tell bro now, If i tells mom will scold me and warn me not to say anything in front of my bro . So what can I do ? I can't do anything for it. I could only shut my mouth and listen what they say without giving any opportunities. I just don't know how to tell you all of the thing. If i tell you dislike about the thing then you'll ' Just scold them lah, you're their sis , you should teach them'. But can I give a opinion? i can't.
i'm sorry for all that, i wouldn't be perfect like u taught .
I'm sorry , no matter your love for me will last long or not.
Mine always will. I love you no matter what.
Your Wife Emma .
